I had this guy I was with who was my DREAM GUY! I mean the 1st time I saw him I was so enamored I had to call my mom and tell her about this mystery guy who was SO FINE!
Lol, long story short he ended up being a DOG, played the hell out of me and then came back into my life years later as a new man with a refurbished spirit.
I don't believe in re-dos but because we were never officially together when we dated I restarted a friendship with him that eventually turned into a romantic, with a future, relationship.
At the beginning of the friendship I didn't really like him at all! But he grew on me...he respected me, he kept me uplifted and edified. He encouraged me to pursue my dreams, we were on the same page spiritually, and it seemed like FINALLY I could breathe and I was SECURE. Secure in myself and secure in the relationship
Long story short things started to get ROCKY and as with any relationship these are the tests and trials that make the foundation stronger.
In our case, due to a lack of communication and my lack of schedule @ the time(which kept me at home bored thinking of only him) tore a ridge in our fairytale and ultimately broke us up.
He didn't call, didn't text and didn't respond to anything....I got a random text from him after not talking for a few days and he apologized and said that there were heartbreaking things going on in his life that he didn't want to talk about
Being home alone AGAIN I started to wonder.....did he get a girl pregnant before me and just find out? Does he have AIDS? Is his career over due to injury? Is he broke? Does he have a terminal illness that will kill him? Does he have an STD?
And after pondering every terrible cause for him to retreat I asked myself if I would stand by him if any of those answers to my questions were YES and I realized I would....
if I knew he was going to die in 4 months I would still stay, if he had AIDS I would still marry him and if he was broke then I'd get another job to help..
That's when I realized I truly loved someone and it wasn't circumstantial, he was my happy place. No matter what type of drama was going on when I talked to him OR talked about him my mind would be at ease.....and I felt SAFE and relaxed
Idk why I wrote this or where I was going I'll finish later lol
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